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Suicidal Jasmine: The Battle

Sunday, May 3rd, 2009

May 3rd, 2009

Dear Diary,

Last night, I fell to the floor crying out of nowhere, as my right hand clutched onto a small blade.  It was as if a demon was pulling my hand towards my left wrist as I fought back.  As I laid on my stomach, I looked ahead, and saw a necklace laying on the floor.

The necklace was gift from a man named Ronald.  Ronald was a man that I dated for several months.  He was my first boyfriend, and the only man I've ever known.  The necklace was a 14 carat white gold necklace, studded with the most beautiful diamonds.  He gave it to me on Valentine's Day.  No one had ever given me a gift on Valentine's Day before.  It wasn't the necklace itself that put me in awe, but the fact that he thought about me enough to buy me one.  A strong, indescribable feeling came over me as he put it around my neck.

He was the most amazing man that I had ever met.  He acknowledged that I was there,  let me know that I was beautiful every chance he got,  left little notes of encouragement all around my apartment, kissed my tears as I told him about my struggles with cutting, along with kissing the scars that it left.  He was a man of chivalry, making sure that every door in my path was opened by his hands, treating me to dinners at the most fancy restaurants, and introducing me to new and exciting things like camping in the mountains.

For a brief moment in time, I was in a world where someone truly cared for me, or so I thought.  Then a couple of weeks ago, I opened my apartment door to see an envelope laying outside my front door.  Inside was a wedding photo of Ronald  in a white tux with some woman in a white wedding dress.  They were both smiling.  There was a message written over the photo.  It read:

Dear MISTRESS,

Listen here, you home-wrecking whore!  You may have been his little fling, but I am his wife.  There is a reason why a ring is on my finger and not yours.  With that being said, stay away from my man.  This is my first warning to you.   I will even take it a step further and give you two more chances.   Once all those chances are up, I will be paying you a little visit.  Watch your back, honey!

P.S.  I attached a token of both my and Ronald's love for you.

Sincerely,
The WIFE a.k.a Ronald's True Love a.k.a The woman that you wish you were!

Reading the last line, I had no idea what she was talking about.  Then on the back of the photo, I felt something.  As I flipped the it around, there was a used condom taped to the back.  Why was this happening to me of all people?  I had no idea that Ronald was married.  He told me that he was single upon dating me.  The last thing I would want to be is someone's mistress.  I have never felt so insulted in my entire life.

Then, I screamed.  I screamed, and I didn't care if anyone heard.  I screamed so loud that my neighbors stepped out to see what was going on.  I then ripped the necklace from around my neck and threw it up against the wall before it fell.

As I revisited this day while laying on the floor, my will weakened to the point where I  eventually gave up.  I yelled through my cries as I ran the blade across my wrist.  I let Satan, along with his faceless demons that graced my pass, win again.

Michelle Shaprow: Sevenly

Sunday, May 3rd, 2009

Michelle Shaprow
Michelle Shaprow is the type of music artist that radios need more of.  She is more than a beautiful face with the voice of an angel;  she is a woman of raw intelligence.  She graduated from Yale University with a degree in psychology and philosophy, with an emphasis on music cognition, and she applies all three elements to her music.  While attending school, she released songs with three different record labels, including Warner Brothers.  She's multi-talented, writing, singing, and producing her own songs.  She has also done production work for VH1, writing scripts for shows like Strange Love, starring Flava Flav and Bridget Nelson. Check out the interview below:

1. Where does your love for psychology and philosophy come from?

I think it's a desire to understand reality. Psychology is the study of the mind and the mind is our interface with reality (some might argue reality itself). Philosophy is the study of reality, and the study of thought and inquiry. I just feel that life is so precious, magical, and mysterious. I like to do whatever I can to understand it better.

2. How long have you been singing and writing songs?

I think everyone is always singing. I was making musical sounds with my voice since I was little just like most people. I actually started writing songs when I learned how to play piano when I was eight, but I think that I was probably "writing" them earlier. It was just that I had an instrument to write them on when I was eight, but it's one of those things that's very gradual. I feel like music is always in all of us and it's simply a matter of finding the instruments to express it.

3. How would you describe your style of music?

Free, pure, soulful, whimsical, and mystical.

4. What do you feel is the connection between the mind and music?

It comes from the mind (or rather through the mind), and it stimulates the mind. In my studies of musical cognition and psychology, I explored why we like to listen to the music that we do. I feel that an understanding of the type of music we gravitate towards can facilitate in understanding the type of information that resonates with us. I believe resonant information has a truth to it, which is why it is resonant, so a study of music and the mind can lead to a greater understanding of truth and reality.

5. You were once signed with Warner Brothers. What made you decide to leave?

They didn't put out the album, so I eventually requested to part ways so I could release music. But it was an awesome experience. It gave me a chance to get a lot of experience in the studio with other producers and engineers, so I learned how it all worked. I got a lot of free food too. I love free food.

6. What do you feel was your biggest accomplishment in your music career so far?

Returning to my inner voice.

7. You're also a producer. How long have you been producing, and what have you produced?

It's difficult to completely mark in time. Is it a matter of the mind being a producer's mind, or is it a matter of connecting with the equipment which allows the music to flow through a producers mind? So I don't know. However I first met producer equipment (my Ensonique), which could allow me to arrange and get familiar with musical technology in 9th grade I think. I wasn't really good with it until later. I first got in a full fledged studio and took a musical concept from conception to fruition later in high school. Then I got a lot of great opportunities to produce when Warner put me in the studio with a number of engineers. I have produced more songs than I can remember, so I'm not sure.

8. What is it like doing production work for VH-1?

At VH1 we wrote scripts, selected footage, supervised video and audio sessions.  It was awesome.  It felt like being a babysitter for very interesting kids. You're in charge of the information and entertainment, you carry it with you from one session to the next, and make sure that it maintains it's integrity and works. You get immediate feedback because your spot is on the air that week. It also felt a little like being a journalist, only your subject matter was Flava Flav and Bridget Nielsen.

9. Who and or what motivates you to keep going forward?

My family, possibility, magic, love, God, the universe, my friends, my boyfriend, Los Angeles, beautiful environments, trees, the sky, the ocean, free time, travel, great food, movies, and bookstores.

10. What vibe do you want to send with your most recent album, Sevenly?

Magic, wisdom, progress, optimism. I want it to feel like how Disney World and Epcot Center make me feel. Like Earth Wind and Fire makes me feel. Like Berry Gordy films (the Wiz, the Last Dragon) make me feel. Like purple, pink, and blue make me feel. And like listening to Michael Jackson's Off the Wall while looking at View-Masters as a child made me feel.

11. What advice would you give to someone who wanted to pursue a career in music?

Do it. Do what you want to do. Follow your passion. Also, my advice would be very different depending on the person, so it's hard to give blanket advice since everyone is driven by different things, and inspired in different ways. I would like to speak to them personally.

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You can listen to, and or purchase more of Michelle Shaprow's music on her Myspace page at www.myspace.com/michelleshaprow.

Why Isn't My Hair Long Like Her's?

Sunday, May 3rd, 2009

Why Isn't My Hair Long Like Hers?Lets say that Brenda shaved her head completely bald in January, while Lisa shaved her head completely bald in June.  Two years later, Lisa's hair goes past her bra strap, while Brenda is still struggling to grow hair past her shoulders.  This causes Brenda to wonder if she's doing something wrong.  After all, she did shave off all her hair several months before Lisa.  If anything, her hair should be longer than Lisa's, right?  Not necessarily.

Why is Lisa's hair longer than Brenda's?  A simple answer to this question is because Brenda isn't Lisa.   Everything from our hair, to our bodies are unique; they can never be exactly the same.   There are also many contributing factors as to what makes our hair different: what we do to our hair, our genetics, our diet, and our lifestyle.

What We Do To Our Hair
How one takes care of their hair, the products that one puts in their hair, along with the styles that one wears them in, can promote healthy hair, or damaged hair.

Some people trim their hair regularly (every six weeks or so), while others don't.  (Trimming off split ends can promote hair growth.   Not trimming off split ends will damage the hair further, eventually breaking the hair off.)  Also when we trim, we may trim off more or less than the next person.

Products rich in vitamins and or minerals can strengthen the hair,  moisturize the hair, and or promote growth.  Other products like shampoos that contain sodium laureth sulfate/sodium laurel sulfate, or chemical-based dyes, can dry out the hair, and or cause damage.  If you ever use a product in your hair that gives you bad results, wash it out with an apple cider vinegar, or baking soda rinse (given that you're not allergic to any of these products), and toss the remainder of the other product immediately.  Only use what works best for your hair.

Wearing protective styles like flat twists, or box braids can promote hair growth.  Braiding your hair too tight can break the hair off.   Certain types of rubber bands can break the hair off.  If you don't sleep with a satin bonnet, or on a stain pillow, other materials, such as cotton, can break the hair off as well.

Our Genetics
Some people are born with hair types that are less brittle than the next, if any.  Although there are those who can take care of naturally kinky hair effortlessly, there are others who struggle with their delicate head of hair, more-so than those of a looser hair type.  This can lead to one not taking care of their hair properly.  Being that type 4 hair tends to have less cuticle layers than the other hair types, it's the most brittle, and without proper care, it can break off easier than other hair types.

Our Diet
The overall health of your hair also depends on your diet.  Without a fair amount of vitamins and minerals, the hair follicles will either break off, grow slower, or simply not grow at all.  Foods that contain antioxidants like fruits, vegetables, and nuts can contribute to hair growth.   One can also take vitamin pills like Vitamin A, Vitamin C, Vitamin B-5, Vitamin B-12, Vitamin E, and or iron pills.  Drinking plenty of water also helps, as it removes toxins that promote unhealthy hair, out of the system.

Our Lifestyle
How do you treat your body?  Do you exercise?  Exercising regularly can promote blood circulation to the hair follicles, promoting hair growth. Habits like smoking can prevent blood from circulating to the hair follicles.  Stress is known to contributing to hair loss, and little to no hair growth.  Try not to be so stressed out and take deep breaths.  Not only does taking deep breaths relieve stress, it also purifies the blood, helping it carry oxygen and nutrients to the scalp.

However, even if Brenda did all of the helpful things above, it is still not guaranteed that Brenda's hair would be longer than Lisa's.  Lisa could even do some of the very things that usually cause damage, and still have longer hair.

The moral of the story is, try not to compare your hair to the hair of someone else.    What works for the hair of someone else may not work for yours, even if you have similar hair types.  The only thing that you can do is take care of your hair and body the best that you can, and love yourself.

The Heart of a Mother

Sunday, May 3rd, 2009

MothersMy mother is really quiet, and rarely shows emotion.  Although I have those same personality traits, it would often frustrate me.  She was never really the type to say "I love you" every other week.  Rather than saying it, she showed it.

She took me to all my checkups, and whenever I was sick, she was there.   The pain that I felt never lasted for long, as she made sure my medications were taken on time.  When things were bad, her quiet, refined nature was broken by silent prayers for the people that she loved.  One time, she caught my illness, and she never complained.  She continued to take care of my brothers and me effortlessly.

Usually, my mother never left the house unless the trips benefited her family.  Aside from taking us to doctor's appointments, going to church to pray for us, shopping for groceries to aid us with, buying us clothing, or walking me to the bus stop,  she was usually always in the house.  The only thing that could make her step out into the neighborhood was her children.  She never cared to socialize with the neighbors, or take walks; it was always to look out for her children.

I was always out and about as a little girl, always running around, or riding my bike outdoors, or at a friend's house.  A best friend of mine lived one house down from us, and whenever it got dark out, I could always count on my fun being interrupted by a "Gloria, your mama's at the door!"  (As I got a little bit older, I would receive phone calls from her instead.)  Whenever there was a tornado warning or watch in our area, I could count on her to search for me.   I would never fail to hear a child in the neighborhood yell "GLORIAAAAA 'YO MAMA'S OUT LOOKING FOR YOU!  SHE WANTS YOU TO COME HOME," or run into her standing at the end of our block ready to lead me there.

Shortly after my brother turned eighteen, he worked at the hospital and didn't get off of work until midnight.  My mother would wait up for him to make sure he got home safe.  I remember my dad telling her something about how he was no longer a little boy.  I myself thought that it was silly for her to wait up for him, and I used to hate how she was always coming to get me, or calling for me to come home.

I can't even remember a time that she was judgmental towards me.  While she advised me not to do things, she never scolded me when I went against it.  She knew that it couldn't change the past.  She was always focused on making the best out of a situation.

Even when she found out that I got pregnant at seventeen, after her many warnings, she didn't judge me.  Although it took her by shock, she was always there.  She was there from the time that I told her that I was pregnant, to the time that I yelled for her as my small, amniotic sack started to slip out only six months into my pregnancy.   She was there calling 911 after she kissed me on the forehead, and told me that she loved me.  And she's still here.

I remember my dad telling her in an argument "No one cares for her more than I do!" and blamed her for many of my wrongs.  I think he was wrong.  And despite everything we went through together, she didn't defend herself.  She didn't need to.  Her actions  of love throughout the years speak volumes,  and they will continue to speak long after she's gone.  The same goes for any mother who cares for her children unconditionally.

So to the mothers, whether you're a mother by blood, or a mother at heart, I hope you all have a Happy Mother's Day!

Featured Artist: Keina Davis

Saturday, May 2nd, 2009

Keina Davis
1. Tell us about yourself.

I  am a painter  from San Francisco, California.  I have been painting and

The Spirit of a Phenomenal Woman, 2000

The Spirit of a Phenomenal Woman,
2000

creating my entire life.   I grew up in Florida. My parents always encouraged me to follow my heart when I was growing up.   I am thankful for that.   I received my BFA  in painting from the University of Florida and my MFA from Tufts University/SMFA in Boston.   I spent some time in the UK in London too.  Along with this academic study of art,  I have spent years learning by being a working artist, which I feel  has been the greatest education.   Over the years, I have been very fortunate to be awarded individual artist grants and awards  from several foundations, allowing me to push my work to new levels.  Outside of painting,  I love practicing Bikram Yoga (yes intense 100+ degree heat), collecting vinyl, and making mixes, coming up with, and cooking new vegan dishes for friends, and hanging out with my husband, Ben.

2.  How long have you been into painting?

I always knew I wanted to be an artist. I started painting when I was 7 years old and plan to continue to create as long as I am living, and able to.

3.  How did you evolve into your current style of painting?

My style is an ever-evolving process.  My work seems to reach a point every 7-10 years or so, where there are subtle changes.   It continues to grow as I continue to evolve as a person.  They are  both connected.

4.  How did you go about starting your art studio business?

I always knew I wanted to work for myself. I told my parents when I was 7 years old  that I wanted to be an artist, and self employed by the time I was 30.  (Thinking at 7 that 30 was ancient.)  But I am happy to say that when I was 26 yrs old I realized my dream.  I was teaching at the time and decided to take  a leap of faith.  It was scary, but I am so happy I did.  I’ve learned so much working for myself and have grown in so many ways.  There was nobody there telling me how to  figure these things out.  For me, it really was just knowing I wanted to take this chance, and getting to the business of doing it.   I was willing to work and learn, so anything was possible.  I always tell people who ask, that it is not always an easy path.  There are ups and downs just like with anything in life, but  when I decided to take this path I knew this, and live my life accordingly.  I have simple lifestyle.  I am doing what I’ve always wanted to do and I am happy.

5.  What are the benefits of having your own art studio business?

The biggest benefit is knowing that I can always work for myself.  This is rewarding in itself.  I am able to do something that I enjoy and work on my own schedule.

6.  Do you have any tips for artists who may want an art studio business?

Just do it.  Take a leap of faith.  You will never know what you can do unless you try it.  If you are willing to learn and do the work, you can do anything. I have stayed small which works best for me. Look into live/work spaces.  I have enjoyed the benefits of working from live/work  studio spaces.

7.  Do you make custom artwork?

No,  I don’t typically do custom work, unless it is something I am really interested  about the project and I have total freedom with it.  I worked as a contract artist in advertising from my  last 2 years of high school throughout college.  I never really liked being told what to create and how to create it.

8.  Where do you hope to take your artwork in the future?

I just hope to continue  to grow and explore in my work.  In all of my work  I hope to pass on stories of everyday people. I hope to inspire us to make connections between the community & the individual, between our ancestors & ourselves, between one culture & another.   As long as I am doing this,   I am staying true to my work, which means I am on the right track.

More of Keina's work:

Underground Railroad, 2001
Underground Railroad, 2001

First Born, 2002
First Born, 2002
Black Irish (detail), 2008
Black Irish (detail), 2008
Re-historicizing the Black Man, 2008
Re-historicizing the Black Man, 2008

Be sure to check out the rest of Keina's portfolio at www.sivadart.com.

Can I Become a Vegetarian Even if I’m Expecting?

Wednesday, April 29th, 2009

Can I Become a Vegetarian Even If I'm Expecting?Hello to all my vegetable-loving brothers and sisters.  In my previous article, we discussed the need for vegans and vegetarians to love one another.  In this issue, we will be discussing safe ways to become vegetarian, even while you are expecting.  Now, I must advise that you should always consult your doctor before radically changing your diet, especially if you are pregnant.  With that being said, on with the show!

I would first like to say that you have taken a big step in deciding that you would like to give the vegetarian lifestyle a try.  The first thing I would suggest you try and give up when transitioning from meat to no meat is beef, or pork.  Skip the burger and go for the chicken sandwich instead.  Likewise, instead of bacon and sausage for breakfast, replace it with fresh fruit such as strawberries, or a starch like hash browns.

The key to success is to set you up for victory.  If you wanted to lose weight and haven’t worked-out for years, you wouldn’t start by going to the gym four hours a day, six times a week.  Likewise, you have been eating meat a long time, and those cravings don’t go away overnight.  Be patient with yourself and don’t give up.  Try to remove a new meat product every two weeks until you are where you want to be.

When I was pregnant, I was already a vegetarian for a few years.  After discussing it with my doctor, I decided to incorporate chicken and tuna in my diet.  When you are pregnant, you need to ingest an extra 500 calories a day.  That may not seem like much, but if you are battling with morning sickness, chances are, you are getting rid of more calories than you are actually taking in.

While the things that I was eating was designed for pregnancy, such as bananas for potassium, fresh spinach for iron, peanut butter for protein, etc, I felt more comfortable allowing those meat products into my diet.  My personal opinion was that I decided to be a vegetarian, not my baby.  I know many women who have gone through their pregnancy on a vegan diet, and everything was fine.  It's really a personal choice, and one that should be discussed with your doctor.

If you are expecting and really want to become a vegetarian, I would suggest that you wait until after you give birth.  You are making another person right now.  Enjoy it without the added pressure of giving up meat.  Like I said in my first article; vegetarian does not automatically equal healthy.

Please feel free to email me at delia[at]afroglitzmag.com if you have any questions.